I have the same problem too never can stay "dark" long enough to see if I ever get her to commit again. Because of her complaints of how I didn't show her love (and I didn't) I have an overwhelming urge to show her the new me when I think theres an opening. I thinks the main think thats stops her is the fear that the changes in me wont last. You have a lot to be happy for dog so good luck
Me 38 WAW 29 D 4 Married 9 Together 11 Bomb June 07 Separated Jan 08 Reconciled May 08 awesome, happy, and blessed