No contact today. I've made my decision to not contact or reach out, it doesn't help and it is up to her.
Funny, I feel pretty positive about life but at the same time I feel I have done everything and I'm feeling defeated. Sort of a mixed bag I guess. Really feel positive in my mind, but just physically I'm beat. I need some major rest I think to help out myself before it starts to bother my head. Might just be a good night to chill instead of going out.
