Well, apparently D14 has been messing up at school. She hasn't been handing in assignments since Christmas, the teacher called W and W called me. W said she talked to D at lunch and this is what W said "I did my usual freaking out and ended up screaming at her" Now, she said it in a way that said "here I go again" she wasn't proud but seemed to be feeling somewhat ashamed. D says she doesn't know why she hasn't been handing work in, she just doesn't feel like doing it. Teacher suggested that D14 could talk to a counsellor at school, D says she doesn't need to. So, Sunday W and I will sit down with D14 and try to discuss this situation. W finally feels that maybe this is due to our separation. Who would have thought! Really though it's good to see W at least being willing to look at and accept the idea that this isn't all roses. Right now I'm sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks, I feel like I just want to pack my stuff and move back home. The thought of my babies suffering is just so upsetting. They don't deserve this and part of me feels like I want to just go home and take the sh!t for my kids. D10 is also afraid to go to sleep overs and be away from mommy! This hurts so much, I think I'm just gonna sit and cry. My babies are hurting and I can't do anything about it!!! Btw, I won't pack my stuff, it's just how I feel right now. I know it will pass.
