Was out for dinner with W. Got to talking about tomorrows plans. She had asked me a while ago to take her laptop to the PC shop. So I asked if she wanted me to do it tomorrow. She said she could come with me or take it herself. I asked her why... knowing the answer anyway. She eventually said that she couldnt trust me to not to try and check her emails. Since she knew I had read her phone messages before, so she cant trust me now. So I couldnt bite my tongue. She is the one who had a PA and is ongoing with an EA (probably including hugs and kisses) and she is the one exchanging these secret emails that she doesnt want me to find. ANd she is the one having difficulty trusting!!!! She says in one breath that is emails have nothing in them just small talk, but the she says that she doesnt want me to check them as she doesnt want me to be hurt... implying that there is something there that will hurt me.
She says she understands why I am interested and she understands why I am hurting about this, and she feels bad for making me suffer....... but nothing will change. She is in the next room now on her laptop!
I know I have to keep my cool... just so damn hard sometimes. I wont be a doormat! If we are to start a new R then I wont go into it as the weaker partner.
Steve
Please any advice....
Me 27 W 30 M 2yrs/ T 5yrs Expecting our first child Sept 08 warning bomb (has feelings for someone) 21/12/08 I found out about OM (by snooping) 14/1/08 Living together.
