Just came back from the kids C. My H was there yesterday to get an update from her on their situation (and pay). He said he never told them he is coming back. She asked him if they read something in his body language perhaps, his attitute towards me? He said yes because he is actually thinking of coming back home, not yet decided(!!!!!!!).
My C saw him also yesterday(share same practise with Kids'C). He actually had a long conversation with her about what to do IF he ever wanted to come back. She told him what she told me today: that if we were to try we should do it with MC and that we should think of the kids and make sure we don't get them disappointed. That we need to have them prepared and prepare ourselves and them so that everything goes smoothly. He repeated that he is not sure yet but... He also said that realises he needs to work on himself a lot.
I should be thrilled but I am not. I know he is more than 50-50 now leaning our side but I don't know if that would be enough. My C seems pretty much sure that he will, but believes we don't stand a chance to succeed unless he works on himself at the same time. He told her too I've changed (and I have, honestly!!!) Funny thing is, he did not call me today, at all. I didn't either. I decided I'll give him some space and do my own thing. I don't want to get in a "waiting mode" because he is very slow and he is checking me out at the moment. I feel it.
My C asked to think of some "pre-requisites" that I feel would be vital "If I were to have him back" (sometimes I feel she just doesn't get it, IF I WERE TO HAVE HIM BACK?)
Any suggestions on how to move on very welcome.I just wish he would talk to me about everything that is holding him back and all the things that go through his mind. But I guess it doesn't work this way...
