Getting stronger everyday!

[kissak]

Thanks Grace and BFM....my H did tell me that he would rather their R end for other reasons versus her dumping him because he had been caught doing something he shouldnt....but in the end I think It will end because of the trust issue. I did talk to him a little last night at tkd...I know, I broke the NC rule, but it was insightful for me, and I still remained detached in a way. He asked about the emails the OW had sent to me. I guess she was upset that I didnt respond to her. He said she thought I was hiding something because I didnt respond...I told my H that I just rather her not contact me at all, that this was their problem and not mine. He agreed and said He knew he shouldnt have even told me about it. But he did say that he had been told that she was playing him and stuff and that he believed she was sending those unknown texts to herself. I just told him that it was all childish behaviour and i would rather be kept out of it. He agreed and said he was sorry. I did tell him that I wanted to know how either of them could really be happy with all that was going on? He didnt answer me. Said he couldnt. I let it go. I went home last night feeling pretty good. Nothing he said really had that much of an affect on me. I can see he isnt truely happy, but wants to be with her so badly he is blind.

Did get a bit of encouragment....in a way. An old man I know come in the shop today and he asked me how my love life was going! He knows me and my H are seperated, anyway, I said it was going the same...he said, I did see your H out the other day with this lady and him and his wife said the woman he was with looked so much older than him....LOL! He really went down the ladder! The old man gave me a compliment when he left, said I was looking good, then he said "of course, your mom and dad didnt make no ugly kids!" ( there are 5 kids in my family ) I was flattered! Made me feel good!!

I am the prize!! I think I will go and treat myself this weekend and get my hair done!!