Thanks BT your words and thoughts are much appreciated.
Like you I just want to hold my head up and be able to say I made my best efforts, I showed love, compassion, respect, honor, courage, strength and confidence. I looked into the abyss and held my head high, did all that I could and still came out on a good positive note. More importantly to me is that I honored the vows, the commitments I made to her, to myself, to God and to our children and family. And did it in a positive way, love, compassion, honor, respect and most of all Faith.
If she decides to end our marriage then so be it. I know I was here with all my heart, soul and mind committed to the vows we took. I've always been here, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, for better and now for worse.
Yes I do love her now as much as I have ever loved her. I will always have love for her, part of my heart will always be hers. This does make it all the more difficult to deal with. But this is my choice, a choice to let love, compassion, honor, respect and Faith be the guiding principle of my life, my heart and my soul.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
