Well, I had a good night last night. Actually not really good but it didn't end up the way it could have or has in the past. D4 had gymnastics and we got home at 8. H was already there, odd since he works till 8 and his work is a 25 min drive. Said he came home cause he didn't feel like being there anymore and there was 2 guys to close. Got off the computer when I came in and sat and talked animatedly again like I had noticed as things started to feel more "normal" a few weeks ago. The talk was all about work, and he did mention OW's name a few times as a casual part of it. Not sure whether this is good or bad - feels comfortable mentioning her name in front of me because nothing is going on - or just can't keep her name out of his mind? Regardless I ignored it and pretended she was the same as anyone else in the conversation. Because I was able to listen and discuss without getting upset that her name crept in the conversation was longer and more enjoyable than it has been.

H had hockey at 10:35 about a half hour away. He left to go at 9:15 - came down to say goodbye(little miracles) since I was watching LOST(does anyone else love this show???) and said enjoy your show. There was no mention of when he would be back and I didn;t ask. (as a sidebar after our first MC session our task was that if he went out he answered honestly when he would return and would call if he was going to be late, and I would not give him a hard time about his estimated return or call asking what he was doing). He doesn't seem to be keeping up his end of the deal here but I let it go. He came home at 1:50. In the past - before the A, I would have been livid sitting in the livingroom. I stayed in bed and pretended to be asleep. Realisticly he could have been home by not much earlier than 1 by hockey math of game, shower, locker room beer and drive home. He crawled in bed and went to sleep as well, about 5 min later I sat up to set the clock for him and he noticed I was awake and rolled right over. Tried to gab a little and I was brief and nice but rolled back over to go back to sleep. I am sure he was looking for some love but I didn;t go there. He was up by 6 unable to sleep again and left for work at about 6:45 - kind of early. He called at 7 to say how bad the roads were - we are having an ice storm - and that maybe school was cancelled. He called again at 9 to see what was up. I am thinking although there are things I would love to change that all in all I controlled myself like I would want to last night and it resulted at least so far in a more pleasant day today!


Me~34
H~38
D6.5

EA/PA-DEC.07

Moved out~Apr.13,08
Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08
No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009