JOHN210(should I stay or should I go)

[bhopeful]

my happiness is still very much controlled by my W's actions.

I'm glad that you recognize this. Now what are you going to do to change it? Even if you were in the best R possible, you still can't attach your happiness to someone else. It's not fair to them or you. Do you realize how much pressure that is to put on someone? She's dealing with her own issues and you put the added pressure of your emotional well being on her as well. Take that pressure away and you may just see some changes in your situation.

I'm sorry that you're having such a bad day. Try to do something nice for yourself to pick up that PMA. Hang in there. I'm pulling for you...