You are probably right. I've heard the card idea before but saying to much will be pleading, pursuing, and needy. Maybe send it with much less said. This week, for some odd reason, has been more difficult. I just feel like or wish I could do something. It just seems that I have to do something to be able to move into a stage where we can rebuild our friendship and then R/M. I just need to build upon her loss of anger, friendliness, sweetness, lingering, extending conversations over the last 1.5 months. I guess 'dimness' is the way to go.
Well, for the next 4 weeks 5D will be at WAW's house on Sunday's. It's actually a 180 for me because we, as a family, did not go to church regularly prior to separation. Oddly, we all go to different churches now. Anyhow, WAW does not have church clothes for these days for 5D. When we separated, she offered to let me take 5D to church, my day or not, because she sees 5D and I enjoy the time together. I am supplying the clothes for 5D but it does show WAW that I am taking care of things and doing things that I would not do in the past. More 180. I am doing it for myself but WAW will notice. It also avoids unnecessary communication.
Also, I think it is necessary to point I was told to leave 4.5 months ago, even though she is the WAW. So, I do not have 1/2 of near everything.
I will not meet her in a neutral place for a long while anymore. I am not going to set myself up for her to strengthen her resolve to end things. The last neutral site meeting was suppose to be to talk about 5D school, tuition, upcoming school events, and set Feb schedule, while 5D played. But she brought up lawyer and stuff before done with 5D talks. Not my choice and not the purpose.
