Having a hard time

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You guys will never believe it! I know my H has a heart but anymore I rarely get to see or feel it. When I picked up the kids last night he came out to the car alone and squated down to lean on the open driver's window. I leaned over and gently kissed him on the cheek-kinda to thank him for talking to me the other night when I was so upset. He immediately started crying like a baby. I ran my fingers through his hair (seemed a little thinner in 4 months!) to sooth him but he didn't talk. Once I took my hand away he took it back in his hand and held it. Eventually the kids came out and he straightened up. He said he would be over today (my early day at work) to put the xmas stuff in the attic (and we will show S11 how to do it). And since he hates the insulation he said he will bring clothes so he can immediate shower and we could all go to IHOP - S11 always bugs to go it is his favorite place. I said that would be very cool. It is the little things in life like that that cheer me up. Very little effort. I may perhaps not ever have the relationship I would want but I have ALWAYS said I don't want to be the enemy and I don't see him as that. Dinner, movie, etc. We are still a family no matter how it seems.

I put it like parents. We fight with them constantly as kids and then move out. Our relationships with them improve when we don't have to live with them. (except him, huh? )

I'll keep you updated!