We shared about 3 phone calls and 6 emails yesterday, mostly to do with her telling me what's going on at work. I also put my car up for sale and have started the process of listing the boat. Not because we're starting to liquidate anything, it's just that we have agreed that boating had too much of a stranglehold on our life and probably contributed to our problems.

I have an Audi convertible and I just don't feel right driving it feeling the way I feel now about myself. It seems so pretentious and not in harmony with how I see myself since going though this process. I know now that I was a self-esteem mess and the fancy car was just a way of compensating for it. I want to go back to my roots and buy a Jeep.

So I told her all this, and she emailed me "wow...
send me a pic of what you want to buy for the new outdoorsy dude you are going back to being \:\) " Nice comment on my changes, I think, and the little happy face is a good sign.

I was invited out to dinner last night at the home of some good friends of W and I. Right before I left, she emailed me
"Have fun and say hi to my friends \:\( "
The little sad face tells me she is sad that I am seeing them and she's not.

I am going to email her today and let her know that her mail is starting to pile up at home. I will ask her how she would like me to get it to her, without sounding like I'm pursuing. Any suggestions?

The amount of pursuing I am doing right now doesn't seem to be hurting the situation, she is being very sweet and we are communicating, and she even makes the odd comment about "if we end up back together". I am walking a fine line, I know, and I am very aware of pushing the envelope if things seem to be going well. I guess those are the times I should pull back.