catfan...10 months post d and i still check in here on occasion...i always read your threads and wish you the best....you are a veteran ...a warrior if you will in this battle to save your marriage and i commend you....like me you may not win the battle but in the end it will be how you fought that will give you peace and solace....i still miss and love my xw to this day...she lives right down the street and saw her today at my house..we still hug/kiss every time we say hello/goodbye and i still go to bed every night wondering what happened...what i could have done differently but in the end i can look at myself in the mirror,at her,at my kids, at our friends, and respective families knowing that i did everything humanly possibe to avoid this result...i cant comprehend the guilt she must sometimes feel in her private moments with herself.....the woman i married loved and was a partner with for 23 years is gone and slowly i am learning to accept that....my wish for you is that you get some peace knowing you did everything you could too in your situation....god bless you//// BIG TUNA
ME-47 WAW-42 S16 S8 bomb 5/5/06 separated 10/6/06 D 4/18/07
