The Good, the Bad, and the Funny Part 7

[mkultra]

UGH! Things are feeling like they did when I first found out about my H's affair! My sex friend ( I hate that F Buddy term but same difference) is seeing someone else. She is also that same person who was jealous of my H and his mistress and revealed his affair when she found out. She and my lover actually made out at my work in front of my mom. I explicitly told him not to the night before but I was not there. So my mom confronted this skanky girl and she claimed she has been seeing the same man as me but a month longer. My mom did not let on that I was also sleeping with him so who knows? Everyone is shocked because he acted like my boyfriend even though I told him I was not ready for anything too serious. Even his best friend was disgusted. She may not know about me. She says she is selling her home to move in with my lover. Impossible. She says she does not really like him, that he likes her but she wants him to take care of her. He is worth several million and his dad's company is worth much more, yes he is a trust fund heir to some dynasty. Both our families are well off and maybe that is also why we bonded because there was no weirdness about money between us. It is a lie that they are moving in together because the home belongs to his father and no one else can move in so he maybe he is lying to her too. How bizaare. My mom said that even his friends were shocked because they all believed he was in love with me. No one has ever seen this pair together but he is very public with me even with his family. Maybe I was just a fake girlfriend for his family? His best frined thinks he is being vindictive because of the rumours that my H and I have reconciled. My H has been sleeping back in my home since Christmas occassioanally but only because of overnight babysitting as he is still homeless. . Everyone was shocked to see him with this golddigging ugly girl. I am much more kind and cute-believe me. I am aghast that he would do that after I asked him not to hook up with anyone in my workplace. yes, we were not exclusive and that was made clear but this way out of bounds. The worse thing is that my H may know. I dunno but this female knew a lot about me and my H and may be spilling some beans to this ex lover of mine ( as of two days!) He was actually kissing and hugging me in front of her for hours and acted like he did not even know her. Drama that I do not need. UGH!!! I am sorry if this is off the marriage subject but I am heartbroken that I chose such a destructive person to be with during my separation. He initially seemed so nice and discreet, not judgemental, just fun and warm. I have never actually heard of such cruelty. This man acted so in love with me and understanding about my separation because he had gone through it also. His wife was physically and emotionally abusive. He told me he loved me and I did not reciprocate but I did feel pangs of love. I was just not ready to say it so instead I said I loved his shirt. He seemed saddened like he was going to cry. That is not excuse to do what he did. Horrible. I just saw that Oprah is having a divorced woman show tomorrow. OMG. This is happening again. The weight loss-I am probably less than size 4- not so cute, smoking up to six per day, sleepless nights, irritable with kids, not looking forward to meeting anyone again, pimples are popping up. Sorry for ranting I just need to purge it. UGH! I know this sounds lame but how could anyone do this knowing what I have already been through this year? That is just Fed up. He knew my H cheated on me and that I was pretty vulnerable. I was kind and patient and asked him to be cool with the fact that I was alone for a long time. UGH.