Well this is definately not going very well. I don't think I really want this. the very first night that I want to go to a friends place because she just found out about an A her other half is having, he gets mad. Thinks I should stay home and worry about our M and not worry about anyone else. Well I think that is BS. I wanted to bring her a copy of DBing and give her a different kind of support that what I know she will be getting and he gets mad. Like I am not allowed to leave. And then he tries to manipulate the sitch with me by turning it on me. How I had all these people to talk to when he was gone and he had no one. Well that was his choice not to talk to anyone, not mine. He keeps saying it was for pity that I talked to other people. So is that why we are all here? For pity? I thought it was for help. To get support for all that was happening in our R's. So now what? i really don't want him here right now. i haven't had any space to even let this all sink in. I am suppose to just get over the A and move on like nothing never happened. Well I can't. I have been trying, but now I can't even leave my house without getting the big guilt trip. I really don't know if I can do this anymore. I don't feel strong enough to keep this up. he seems to expect so much from me and I don't think I can do it. Does this feeling go away or is this M just doomed?
Me:32 H: 34 T: 12 YEARS M: ALMOST 5 S: 8 D: 4 S: 14 (OTHER R) SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it) NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants) MOVED HOME 12/01/08 I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans
