thank you friends for your ideas \:\) glad to have you guys here for me.
Desperation is slowly seeping out of my daily routine, the rumiating less intrusive, the desire to check my phone every min for his call less desperate. Yes, this was the right desicion, don't know how is it going with H, but I am now becoming aware of how much i lost of myself in an efford to keep H happy, to cater to him, to appease him and make things at home "right" for him.
Wow, hadn't realize how far back I'd push my own needs (I did hav mini blow ups from time to time when I imploded after so much holding back) but I just had not truly realized how one-sided was my M, my R.

Already invited my 2 dear neighbors/friends over for dinner next week, I danced my butt of at zumba this morning, I truly enjoyed myself.

Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.