Bobbi,
You are right, I do not want to give up.....although i have some moments where I can not share on these boards what i would like to tell my W.
Anyhow, I honestly don't know where I would be right now were it not for the book and more importantly all the support from these boards.
Whatever happens, I will linger here and who knows.....maybe some of my suggestions and or mistakes may help someone out there.