Matilda, Aud, and Jak, It has been a mixed week, as is typical. On Monday, Madame CL had a tantrum because I took a break from washing some pans and left them in the sink. I retreated to my bedroom and let her vent. She called me a coward for not coming out, but I didn't see the point. She kept trying to get an apology from me, and I kept silent. I decided to wait 24 hours for it to settle. The next day she apologized.
To her credit, she has increased her exercise routine, and being proactive about getting back in shape. I accompanied her to the gym last night, and did my yoga routine.
She is working on clearing-out her bedroom, in preparation for it to be painted. I know she is excited to give the room a makeover, by removing outdated wallpaper and having it painted with a Gobe Desert shade of brown.
She is also listening to tapes on the Law of Attraction. I'm not familiar with it, but it seems to want people to cultivate their minds that they are worthy of abundance in all aspects of their lives--relationships, money, health, and others. This sounds like something positive for her to be engaged with.
I think I currently have the right balance of self-care and connection. It helps to stand for a M, when the spouse appears to be working on self-improvement.
My improvement projects include working on being more fluid and less inhibited with the dancing, putting more emotion and personality on the writing page, being proactive about making connections with people I don't yet know well, and integrating mindfulness exercises into my daily life to practice learning to live in the moment and being accepting of life as it is. I have plenty to work on.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
