Unfortunately, counselling is not an option. H flat out refuses, says he doesn't believe in it.
I tried to persuade him several times during our M into going, but he just wouldn't, won't.
I think he really needs it. I think he's been in some kind of a depression for a very, very long time. He's not happy with himself, claims he never has, and feels that he will never be 100% pleased with his life but says he accepts it for what it is.
That doesn't really help me any. Makes me feel as though our R is nothing, or would be nothing. Something that's not genuine, because I would always wonder in the back of my mind, "What is he doing with me when he's made it clear that he may never be truly happy?"
A few times, I've thought about going myself, but as crazy as it might sound, I feel more at ease here, in a forum where I'm safeguarded by anonymity. I've just always been a very quiet, private person who has trouble voicing her thoughts.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
