W was actually trying to schedule something for work. It is weird she forgot about that date. Theres no chance of her changing it. She wants to know the result asap because she wants to take our kids on vacation during their winter break which is later in Feb. She even wrote it in the petition. That's how MLC she is I think. She has been pressuring me over and over again about what to do for our kids breaks. When we went out to dinner, she must have asked me 5 times. Yesterday we went on a walk with the dog and I didnt say a word regarding anything and the first thing out of her mouth is trying to sort out these breaks so she can go on vacation. I told her that one of us is moving out that week, so how can you plan anything. I'm not sure she considered that either.
I did tell her that she looked very pretty today when she left...o.k....wrong word...but she wasnt as decked out as some days. I'll save 'amazing' for tomorrow.
She did call me after she left to remind me about something. Sort of unusual. I guess she wont realize all the things she relies on me for until we are apart. Dreading that though.
I'm sure that court date was meant to scare me. The way the petition is written and a few other barbs in there, plus, she called immediately to try to negotiate some sort of deal. Thing is, what am I negotiating? Its basically I leave or theres nothing to talk about. I have nothing to lose by at least finding out at the hearing. Problem is it could be very damaging to our chances of reconciling. I'm sure each sides arguments are not going to be too flattering.
I was sitting in bed last night just thinking if I lose the hearing and have to move out...what would moving out be like? What would I take with me? Pretty scarry to think about.
