Burning desire! Seriously, I felt no desire when we started, but I wanted to ML because he did initiate and we need to become less polarized. I was definitely enjoying parts of it - but some things would go on too long and I have two problems with telling him what I like: 1/ he doesn't remember (thus the puppy remark above may be helpful) and 2/I'm shy about these things. Inhibited - no - but definitely shy. I thought that once I'd been married I'd feel less shy, but the truth is all the crap that has happened makes me feel more tongue tied.
I like the idea of getting rid of frump wear and buying more sexy things. I've tried that in very small doses, but when H doesn't even notice or says he doesn't really like something it is like another put down. I'm just so sensitive to criticism at this point.
