It was not the best experience I've ever had but not the worst either.
What would have made it better? Not ever encounter is going to be fabulous, certainly, but maybe it would be helpful to think about what made it so-so for you.
Some of the things I have done are things that make me feel sexier. I went out and bought some new underwear and have sworn off the usual sleepwear. I got rid of clothes I thought were frumpy and bought a few new things that make me feel sexier. When I see a love scene on TV or read about one I start thinking about being with cac. I used to see love scenes and feel both guilty and at the same time wish that things were better for us. But I just didn't know what to do about it back then.
