Thanks Catfan. I understand... Let me make one thing clear I don't want a next relationship and don't even want to think of it. I want so bad to fix this one. I have done a great deal of introspection and self evaluation. I have changed so much I can't believe it. I want only one thing and that is to fix this.. BTW: I am having a great deal of trouble sleeping because I can't stop thinking about the OM. Everyone tells me nothing happened and she does not contact him anymore but my gut tells me different. I want to trust and love. She comes home tommorrow after 12 days on a cruise. I will be happy and have a PMA. I am going to have a great deal of trouble keeping my hands off of her. I will be strong. Cheers!
