Ive really been struggling with my thoughts of whether or not I want her anymore
I think this is very common. But, you have the power and control to make decisions. And you are in no need to rush to make them.
I remember in church this summer, the sermon was about appreciation/respect. How when you are given something you don't really want (us begging our spouses), that you don't respect or appreciate when its handed to you. Its only when you truly want something, that you appreciate it when its given to you.
