Nikki,
I am so happy that your H seems to be turning around. Mine, however, is not. He called on Saturday to tell me that he could stop over on Sunday, but not stay for very long because he has a lot of studying to do for his final exam. I was upset, but said that was fine since I was busy with my paper.

He was literally in my house for less than 5 minutes. He always kisses me on the cheek hello and good-bye, but he did not even really look me in the face. He was not mean, but was in a hurry to get out of there. He took his mail and a book for school and that was it - he left. Of course, I was sad and I called my mom to tell her. Not even two minutes after he left, my call-waiting beeped and it was him. He called to apologize for being in such a hurry and said that after his exam he could come and stay longer. I just acted as if that was fine with me and said sure whatever. The old me would have been crying and carried on. I think I handled it well. I still have no idea what he is thinking, and I am not sure if I care anymore. I need to take care of me!

Nikki, why don't you take Kiddo's advice. The other thread that I always chat on is under The Divorce Remedy Book Club, and is called Part III - Just getting started, went right to LRT. It is a great group of people who are very supportive. I hope to see you over there.

Take care,
Rachel