I think the best way to describe what my H is going through right now is to say that he had a major life crisis, and now he's covered in the ashes of his own destruction. And, rather than get me dirty, he's telling me to stay in the safe zone.
At least he takes ownership of the disaster. I am grateful for that.
I will see him in a few weeks when he comes to get puppy. It will be interesting to hear what he says then. I don't anticipate him to change his tune, but this time he will have to say it to me in person. I'm all ears.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.