Thank you for your response. I am kinda torn on my feelings with her. Part of me hates her for what she did to me and would love to knock the sh*t out of her but I have also been told "keep your friends close and your enemies closer". I feel if I maintain some sort of contact with her then I can get a feel for where she stands and what she is thinking. Although, I do not make contact with her at all. She contacts me.
It makes me mad when I think that I was confiding in her about everything! She would then take the things I say to her back to H and tell him. Here I was trying to figure out who it was that he was having an A with and it was her all along, yet she continued to be "there" for me. That sucks!
Yes sometimes I would love to grab H and shake some sense in him. He has been real good listening and will even talk about any part of it that I want to know (which isn't much...the less I know in details, the better). And yes he is tired of hearing about it but I am tired if thinking about it,wondering about it.
I guess they do expect us to just forget and move on. It is not that easy. We are seeing a C. He is very helpful but it is what is inside of me that I am having a problem with. I need to find a way to deal with it and be able to move on.
