I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

I would just like to say how much I admire many of you on this board. I am new, and I feel like I have already given all I have got and then I read your posts and I see how strong and dedicated you are and it is really inspiring. I am not sure staring at this board while I am supposed to be working constitues GAL, but I am happy to say I have yet to miss a day's work (ok I did miss a half day). Thank you all for being the people that you are.