WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..(2)

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Dude you need to get to AA. Period.

Atlas, I've been going to AA & counseling since OCT. Honestly, it has helped things. I appreciate your feedback but don't 'profile' me. I know drinking was a big problem on many levels. I also know that it wasn't THE problem with M. I'm listening to what W is telling me & she's telling me it was a HUGE part but there were deeper issues that need worked out. Like I said before, the drinking is just an easy target. Easy to identify. I don't want to get into this again with someone. I know where I stand, I'm working on my attitude towards it & I've made HUGE progress. I think a large part of my problem at the moment is W feeling that she somehow needs to control my feelings about drinking & obviously she doesn't want the burden & is in fear of future resentment. It's MY choice, MY happiness, MY life. If I choose not to drink, it's ME that chooses. Nobody is MAKING me do it! I don't know how to express that any other way. Don't profile me, I'm NOT a fuc**** idiot or wimp. I may have been in the past, but that is no longer true. Give me some credit. I see from your sig that you have some experience with this. Nobody can know everything about me and my sitch from reading what I post here.

And for the record, I never resisted the idea of an adventure. I've been saying this to her for months before she finally brought up that she wanted to do something. The only thing I stated was that we needed to take it 1 step at a time. There are logistics involved. I don't want to go on a big $$ trip & that's what I was resisting. The original idea W came up with was a big $$ trip to an exotic location. I'm into that but not ready & I think there are alternatives that would be just as productive within driving distance. I live in Colorado, I'm suggesting to do something Colorado. Plans are already underway. I was very open about the book last night, I was actually excited W thought to get one. I just felt like I was dodging bullets at first. I saw what was happening last night, changed my approach, put my mind in the right spot, & it worked well. I'm not perfect, but I'm learning.