The Good, the Bad, and the Funny Part 7

[mkultra]

Yep, here I am again. I am still separated and I have been gone for three months. My husband has been nice and seems interested in coming home but we do not talk about it. I have been dating a "Bad Boy" and that has made things difficult. I believe that Divorce Busting truly works. If I wanted my husband to come home, I believe it could happen but I need to sort out so many things first.

Update: The dating did help me to move on and somehow this probably did help my husband see me differently but it got truly complicated with this Bad Boy. I am not sure where else to write about it but this Bad Boy actually kissed (maybe more) someone else when he was drunk right in front of me and that other woman was someone my husband supposedly had inappropriate flirting with also! Of course it is now over between this Bad Boy and me, but that really hurts also! Now I feel devastated that one woman in our whole town may have bedded both men I as involved with. Boy, can I pick them or what? Or does this woman have a vendetta against me? We are both bartenders so maybe it is just a coincidence but I just texted the man I was dating that it was hurtful to me that he kissed someone that my husband may have had an affair with. I doubt the Bad Boy would care but I feel like I have lost so much progress that I have made moving on with someone new besides my husband. Yes, we did have a physical relationship, (a great one at that )because the celibacy thing lasted about 9 months for me. Now I am not sure what to do. I do not think I could be sexual with my husband since he cheated on me so I guess I will be alone, again, and that feels like a great loss.

I feel like I did seven months ago when I could not eat or sleep and I exhausted all my friends' ears with sorrow. So I write it here, again. But this time it is not my husband, it is the man I am dating who served as a diversion from my separation. Real dumb, huh? I feel like an idiot walking into this mess again.