All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Hi, everyone
Sue, thank you for keeping my thread.

I got back from trip to home a while ago and since then things had been like a hell. But I am trying to bring myself up to the point where I was before I left.

While I was gone, I was doing alright. Every night, I had dreams about myH but tried not to think about him much. We(me and kids) called him but not enough for him (enough for me) He was upset by the time we were coming back because of lack of conversation.

We have been fighting over and over these days. Reasons?
Does anyone remember I was talking about myH inviting OW1 and makes me upset. Well, he didn't go see her but SHE CAME TO SEE HIM. I found out in many tactics and wasn't like 'need to investigate'. Anyways, I confronted him and he admited after he could not keep up with his story. He didn't understand why it is a big deal if she was in the car. After several days of fighting, he finally understood that I don't want OW to step in or touch my life/belongings/kids etc etc. Because I was so mad, I boycoted the car for a while and was using other transportation. Childish.. yes but I had to do it and gave up when it was getting really cold outside (I remember it was between 0-5 degrees or so..)

Other issues, just too many. BUT H is trying to convince me that OW2 and he are not in intimate relationship. Her age 20, (I was right,)and saying "i am not seeing anybody. only person I have been talking is xxxx(OW1)"

I was lost and just didn't want to think about anything but kept coming back in my mind. I spent days crying only because of him and could not understand why I was so upset. I finally feel okay today even though we fought again. I am going to try to stop communication with him unless necessary.

Kids are doing well. We held myD's birthday party at hair salon. Her friends and she got little make over, nails and such. They had great time and looked like princess. We haven't been able to get a puppy yet and I would like to take a time to think which puppy matches to our family.

I am working on myself, I changed my hairstyle, make up style and such. BUT I gain weight over the holidays. about 10 lbs. My H noticed and my boobs and butt are bigger, which is great! and my skin look so shiny and look great (my skin is expanded by fat..) but my tommy.. look like I am pregnant. got to goback to gym very very soon..

Everyone, I missed you all and I am glad to be back.
Beauty