One minute, I think I'll be ok, the next minute, I panic.
I need to do some changing. I need to detach from H. But if I am supposed to be loving and 'open arms' with him, how can I detach? I am so confused. I think he is completely ready for a divorce. Whether he actually wants it or not doesn't matter anymore, he is focused. I know its against DB to 'assist' them with the D, but I think I am going to have to speed this up. I can't live with him anymore, not when he doesn't want me. And he won't move out until we have situated the house. I think I need space. But I know I'll miss him.
