There are days that I would nuke my whole life for a sexual thrill. This forum is part of what keeps me from doing it. I appreciate your positive spin on what is essentially "settling". The problem with me is that I can never truly settle - the same part of me that my HD comes from has a need to "stir the pot" and so I will never truly settle. I would be cheated if I did. After all he did marry me - sexual, emotional and all that and NOT a namby pamby "everything is just dreamy" kinda gal. Since I know what it means to have a truly fcuked up M I just appreciate the good guy that H is. Yeah - I think there is something wrong. Funny thing is that I'm beginning to think it may just be good 'ol depression and performance anxiety. What if it were??? These things can certainly be helped.
