again, they act happy, and i really think at that stage, they are. good for them. it's still not anything you could sell me
Me either Always.
Actually I am quite happy right now. If I didn't have the money woes hanging over my head I think I would be extremely happy with my life. I have no desire to live with the person my H has become. I don't understand how he lives with himself.
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i felt this finally for the first time when i saw h at mediation. i could look at him directly and see that he was a man who lived a life i would not wish on anyone. simple as that. finally, i saw the 'incompatibility' grounds for the divorce.
I'm sorry that it has come to this, but also glad that you are sounding so peaceful about it.
I know on the rare occassion that I see my STBX it is like looking at a stranger that looks like my H. I have no idea what to say to him. It's a weird feeling, we were so close and now there is such a great divide. Seeing him still throws me. I don't know why though. I don't feel love towards him, not romantic love at this point, I don't really feel anything and that messes with me I think. I do notice that I am edgy when I know he is going to show up.
