Hi there,
Just wanted to express my sympathies at the hell you are going through. You are not alone. When my ex told me he was getting married, I knew it was coming. I had found about the other woman while he was still living here, but of course I'd hoped they wouldn't get married. Of course, they did before the print could dry on our divorce decree. My ex came by the house one day while my older kids were at school to drop the bomb. I was at home with my 1 and 2 year old still in diapers. He also asked ME to break the news to all the kids for him. I don't remember what I said back to him. I just remember him walking out of the house, and me going back to wash dishes at the sink. About a minute later I started screaming my head off. I screamed and screamed and yelled and screamed. Then I went to the bathroomand I threw up. Then I laid down on the bathroom floor and cried uncontrollably in between puking. I really had a mini breakdown right there in the bathroom. And my 1 and 2 y.o. drug blankets and pillows into the bathroom where I was laying having a breakdown, and put the pillows under my head, covered me up with blankets, and then drug all their toys and bears into the bathroom and sat there with me for the next 2 hours while I cried and threw up.

Then I called my mom and she told me that she wanted to poke out my ex husband's eyes and ring his neck. That always makes me feel better \:\) lol....and my babies hugged me, and said "Mommy u ok?"

And then I got up, wiped my face, and went on with life.

So you are not alone. And you have every right to feel like your heart is breaking. But keep yourself busy, keep doing what you need to do, keep good friends by your side, watch lots of funny movies, listen to only happy music, and keep believing that you are a person of value. And I promise you that it will not always be this painful.

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