Hi PS, I haven't been posting as much as I have been busy with a new work challenge. I miss journaling and keeping updated here.
Things at home have been steady and balanced. I do still get set off by a bad memory, which in turn really brings my H down, but somehow or other we get through it. My H, like yours, would rather just move on and forget the past, but as you know, our female brains work differently.
I do feel I am at a good place now; much of the healing has taken place, but as I have said, there are the glitchy times, and I suspect that this will always be the case. We make sure to have some fun together time, family time, and I really do value the alone time as well. I think we have both learned how fragile our family system is, and how much we want to keep it all going.
I am a decade up the road from you, PS, and I feel the stresses of midlife, with kids getting closer to being launched, aging and sickly parents, changes in myself, etc. The good part is that I have really taken stock of myself, the bad and good, and I'm learning to take better care. I'm watching out for depression, setting limits, and holding other people accountable for their own actions, even my kids! I'm finding interesting ways to keep the intellectual and spiritual side of me growing. It really is an ongoing journey.
PS, I feel that this is going to be a healing year for you...remember that you can't rush the process. You are where you are supposed to be, and you are coming along quite nicely. Keep in mind to put some fun in the dysfunction...not everything can be analyzed and placed in a secure spot. After going through marital trauma it can be hard to loosen up, but that is what's needed sometimes.
Please know you are in my thoughts and I truly hope for health and recovery for everyone here.
