Will I be here?

[Beth 83]

So, all, H is coming over tonight. I solicited it. Our mailbox was knocked down last night so I told him that and we need to decide about whether we are selling our house (as background, we had been planning on selling our house before we separated in July. We are having a hard time affording it and we never really wanted to live there anyway --my MIL sort of pushed us into it) While this is a horrible market to sell a house in, it has also been killing me living there with all his stuff in our house.

Of course, selling the house will put out there the possibility of our next steps. Will we get our own separate apartments? Get one together? It seems pretty obvious to me that we would get our own separate apartments considering no progress has been made between us. I imagine at that point, we would separate our finances as well. Then what? Do we talk divorce?

Any suggestions on how to transition from house talk to "where do we stand in your mind" talk?

I know we aren't supposed to talk OR...but it is a little different in our situation because of selling the house and how that will literally cause us to go in separate directions. But, I truly believe selling the house will be better for us financially and for GAL on my own w/o husband (for the first time, saying that, I feel horrible about selling the house b/c it really means moving away from my marriage)

UGH! Moving away from my marriage?! What am I supposed to do? I want to be married but we can't afford our house w/ H's salary! And we never really cared for our house and wanted to move somewhere else, but now that we aren't together "we" are going to be doing anything!

I've been so ready to move on, but now...I'm Not!

Any expect advice here, other examples of how I can make the conversation go, I would really, really appreciate it.