I just want to make it better. . .

[Evie]

The difference is our medium is through texting, so I have it in writing already. I was afraid I would delete it all by mistake so I wrote it down. It took 2 hours and 4 A4 sheets of paper.

The trouble is, I then over analyse everything as well!! I have being adviced to take things at face value and not read too much into anything H says. Believe nothing of what they say and only half of what they do. Is your H speaking louder in Actions? Do you have eye contact?, will he let you touch him without pulling away? Can you do the hand on the shoulder occasionally?. I gave H a hug when I went away, he hugged me but it felt empty, but he let me hug him.

My H also said he loves me in his own way, that has to be enough for now, the positives are they are not filing for divorce, so we have time on our sides. I'm slowing coming to the conclusion that this will all take a long time. We have to be Patient.....

Do you write a journal? I have started too and it helps. I print off little bits of advice that I like and staple it into my diary, it helps to re-read the positive stuff when your in bed at night. There is one piece I like in the nuggets of wisdom section, i'll try and find it for you.

Keep being positive. Your doing really well.

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