I want him to realize, or at least validate, our marriage was worth something
It's like me expecting my 9yr old to say he likes school. If he really thought about it he'd realize it is good for you, that school is a great place that will deifne his future, but no way in heck he will, he refuses to see the truth. Same with your H, remember, he is remembering your M's past with drab colors, you can't force him to say it was worth something, then that would make him wrong by leaving and being with ow and he is not about to admit he's messed up royally.
Sadly, you have been put in the backburner and he doesn't feel confortable talking with you (just learned the hard way that for the A to work the LBS has to be made wrong, my H has told ow whoppers about me). For the time being your H is impared and doesnt' want to acknowledge that there was goodness in your M, that you guys did have something good going on.
Sounds like depression mixed with a bunch of other unhealthy things, check out the book "is he depressed or what" to understand the depressed male, you just can't trust anything they say. Yes, pms isnt' our friends in times like this, pamper yourself and focus on your little d3. You must let his ailment run its course hon, it can't be rushed, you can't talk him into reasoning, this is a long ride hon.
If he calls don't go into heavy R talk, chances are you wont' like what he's gotta say. Focus on keeping yourself healthy.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.