I've never been to the Flats... I may have to make a run up there. I do have some customers I need to "visit" up there.
I apologize to all for being scarce the last few days. Not much has changed with my sitch and I'm frankly tired of dealing with it. W and I had a good conversation about how stressed she is and what she's doing wrong. I listened, gave her some ideas (always the fixer) and left it at that.
Sunday was a B-day party for one of D5's friends. W made several comments and reminders about her meeting us there. Well.. she had her Xmas party Friday night and went out with one of her old (and one she didn't like) friends Saturday night. She texted that she had too much homework and wouldn't make it. Later when she called to talk to the D's, she was still with friend over at OM's house and again commented about having too much homework. I replied "yeah right" and as I handed the phone off to the D's, I could hear her and her friend laughing like 21 year olds.
Too much drama, too much immaturity for me. She's even starting to look haggard. She's getting crow's feet and she's only 26.
I reminded her that we need to figure out the separation agreement. She didn't like that.
Today we talked.. I've kept our conversations/meetings short and sweet. Not being mean, just not hanging around for her either. She asked me this morning if I was mad at her.. said I looked good.. she always kisses my ass when she thinks I'm mad at her.
She asked what was wrong with me.. if I was mad at her. I told her I wasn't, but I didn't understand what the deal was. I told her I don't think it's fair that I continue to pay the bills while she does whatever it is she's doing. We talked about other things.. mostly her (she is sooooo needy) and she was very good at changing subject. When I could get her back on, she had to go. She had to meet "somebody" and she was there. Maybe we'd talk more this evening.
Had D's dance class this evening and she dodged me the whole time. We talked a little.. I caught her checking me out from time to time.. She didn't stay for the whole thing... too much homework and when she left I said "No talk?" and said "whatever" and walked away.
This is the sum of us.. she runs from everything.. why would this be any different.
So.. sad to say I think she's stuck and is too afraid to do anything. I've exhausted my options and I'm starting to enjoy my freedoms. The only pains that still exist are 1. When the D's have cows about us not being together and 2. I still get a little worked up when I'm around W.
