I know it is hard. Yes, you deserve better. I want my ex back but only if he changes and repents. Sometimes I am hopeful, other times I am not.
I admire the people on this board who have taken their MlC'er back and found forgiveness. I am not so sure I would do very good. I would want answers and I think I might remind them of what they did too often.
Hang in there Cagz. It has to play out.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11