She asked me today if I thought she was high maintainance!!! What a loaded question. The answer is yes, as most men will probably say about their wives! But I have always viewed it as the higher the maintainance the higher the reward. All be it I didnt do much maintaining last year! I mentioned one of her earlier comments about the loss of passion in our relationship. I told her that was something I had also noticed and was bothered about. She seemed a little surprised. I told her that probably a lot of the things she missed in the marriage are things that I missed to, but just couldnt find a way to bring up. The passion example I alway put down the lessening of it down to the fact that she didnt find me as attractive as she used to (being a tubby guy can do that)! So I tried not to press the issue. And for her own reasons seems she never pressed the issue either. So there you go.
Time machines would be a lovely invention any time soon!!!
I am seeing hope, but I tried to give her space again as she was tired. She asked me if I wanted to talk, after she wad said she needed to go staight to bed. So I told her that she had better escape before I started talking! I have more things to do now, things that I always had to do, but never started. So I can keep myself busier. Makes it easier. Being in work was hard last week.. I work heavy machinary, and there is a need for ear defenders, so no conversation with anyone during the days really. Just me and my thoughts! It almost killed me. So many thoughts, ranging from picturing the act of cheating to over analysing myself and the R, and just plainly driving myself down. I have a very active brain, it is both a blessing and a curse sometimes. To combat this I have started taking in an MP3 player with me with language lessons on it. So that really take my mind off things. I am also taking herbal stress releif tablets which do actually seem to make a difference!
Thanks again, it is so nice to be able to just write here and have you guys give me feedback. Keeping me sane!
Me 27 W 30 M 2yrs/ T 5yrs Expecting our first child Sept 08 warning bomb (has feelings for someone) 21/12/08 I found out about OM (by snooping) 14/1/08 Living together.
