respond or stay still?

[heartbreak2]

well H left the state with out telling the kids where he was.

then on top of that he took OW with him to deal with telling his sister she is dying.

I know we are separated but not legally.. and we are still married.
So I was going to be nice this week and not keep the L appt and work on the settlement.
But since he took her he bought himself a bigger alimony and for a longer time.

I am so over all of this right now. tired of being in this state of not being able to have my life and move on.

I love him but not the person he is right now for what parent leaves and doesn't tell his kids he is out of town. This has gone on over and over for months. He went to Europe with her and did not tell them where he was or that he was even going or when he was coming back

How can I still love someone who lies all the time.
It is like he betrays me over and over and I take it.

just can't take the pain anymore. The fact that his sister is sick is one thing but that he could not call me and tell me. could not talk to me but to his d and then cried hysterically on the phone with her. That is just not right.

torn right now... I can no longer take the emotional abuse of him being with her and taking her to his family and them now knowing the truth.

I want to be a whole person again not one who is partially here and partially still waiting for him. I can get a life but for me to do that I have to totally let go of him and be over it all for the pain is just too much right now.