Jenny...I just got caught up on your thread and wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.
When reality hits us at times it hits hard. I remember back to the first few months that my H left. He swore that it was just temporary and he needed 'thinking' time. We even spent a weekend together and two days later I was served with D papers. I guess there is no way to predict any of their behavior because it changes second by second.
You are smart to try and take the emotion out. I would have skipped some big mistakes if I had.
Hang in there!!!!
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!