We haven't talked about R since the intense night. At that time, she said she knew that no contact and full transparency was what was needed but didn't actually agree to it.
I know she's really struggling with herself, though. She'd decided it was over 2 weeks ago. Then the MC session did something to make her want to talk. When we talked, it was very clear that we still have a deep connection and could easily work things out if she only made that choice. But she's scared of something and would rather have a fling she knows won't last than work on M. She made an appointment to go see the good C alone, so that's a good sign.
I guess another good sign is that I spoke with her last night and her tone was caring. I'd called about some house stuff. After talking through that, she started asking about my weekend and generally sounded like the person I used to know. I'd assumed that she'd see OM over the weekend and would be distant again next time we talked.
She's going to see her sisters this weekend and I was thinking of contacting one of them who knows what's going on and telling her that I'm fighting for M.
