Hope, I am ready for a counseling session.

I still haven't slept. Its 3:30am.

We are D'ing. Long talk tonight. H kissed a NEW girl Saturday night. He slept in his car (thought he shouldn't drive). Its completely over with OW. He met this girl and thought *I* was out kissing people so he did it. No excuse. This week, we are talking to a few mediators, getting the house appraised, getting new credit cards, filing our taxes (last time together apparently), and separating finances. I told him I can't watch him do this anymore, I can't live with it in my face. He agreed to move out after a few things are situated. The girls are going to stay with me for now, he is going to come and be with them on his off days and stay while I am working. This summer (when they are off school) he will start to take them overnight wherever he is (most likely his dads).

Florida. The only way I could do it with him at this point is if he isn't seeing anyone at all. I could do it during our D, as friends, but I haven't decided. His grandmothers 97th birthday party is in 2 weeks (in Ohio) and he can take the girls, I will not be going. No one will be telling her about us, she would be devastated. She will just think I am working.

Crushed? Yes. Is it happening? Most likely. So I need to wrap my head and heart around it.