No contact with W on Sunday at all and it has probably been about 10 days since I last saw her. Even though I stayed fairly busy Sun., which is always good, it is hard to not get down over what is going on all around me. I'd like so much to be able to hold her & comfort her during this time when I know that she is such dire need of that. Then there is the part of this nightmarish scenario involving the life of a terribly fragile young girl who I refer to as my D even though she really isn't.
I could be so extremely close to having my W slip out of my life forever and for all I know the same might happen with the closest thing to my own D that I have ever known.
I think it is time to say prayers that tomorrow will be bright and I will be able to restore that PMA that I seem to have temporarily misplaced. I guess I'll take a melatonin to insure a good nights rest even though I am feeling like sleep won't be too much trouble. Good night and God bless you all.
