peace and UD: Thank you both for always being there for me. I'd be a complete basket case without your support and understanding. With it, I'm only a partial basket case. Ha.
OC: Not sure if you're reading, but thanks so much for your call. It makes such a difference to be able to talk to someone about it.
I know that this too shall pass. But it sucks so much being in it.
I feel so much guilt for not wanting to continue to stand. Yet, I know that I have nothing to feel guilty about because I've done all that I can. I won't be making any moves to file for now. But I won't be extending my timeline any longer either.
Typically, I put my disclaimer in that whatever I'm feeling is only temporary. But this time, I'm not sure I want to go back to standing. The vision of a reconciled M and a happy family with H is fading.
