well I have children...my H left and was the king of NC...even though we had a S9 when he left he would go months and months with NC...at times I wondered if he was alive...I was not allowed to know where he lived...what he was doing...nothing!!! Once he went 6 months...I finally tracked him down through old phone numbers on his phone bill because I was seriously thinking he might be dead or something seriously wrong...NOPE...he just didn't want to hear from me/us or have any contact...no return calls to our kids...nothing...
I felt guilt because I felt like it was me that was keeping him from his kids...it was a time for me to realize that it wasn't me...
The positive to this is eventually my H did return...but as you know there is no guarantee...and that is what you are dealing with...the NC and the unknown...all I can say is I am sorry...I hope things work out for you...and yes, there is still hope...
