Wantlove, please don't stop posting, I think it is good for you to come here and just read/lurk/post !
You know I had a very long discussion with my H a few weeks ago, and he mentioned that if we would not have had any kids, he would have left and not made any contact with me again, so that I would let him go, so that it would be easier on me...(he pressumed that I would be so angry and hateful towards him, that my love for him would die).
You know they have much pain, shame and guilt...and these things cause them to react so extreme.
Please know that there are so many people here who would love to support you and help you along !
May God bless you Wantlove - ...I too care, otherwise I would never have opened this thread in search of how you're doing !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus